Memory of a friend

Do you remember the girl sitting on the floor?
Curiously, you stared from the door,
You introduced yourself and shook my hand,
That was how we became friends.

Through the years we laugh and play,
Imagination of demons we both slay,
Then we laugh and play again,
That was how i know we were friends.

Remember how we dried those rice in the sun?
It was coloured and we had so much fun,
Mostly, it was fun to have a good friend,
I thought it was going to end.

We wrote lyrics on a blue book,
Lyrics from Michael Jackson, i once took,
We memorized and we sang,
Thinking of it now, it gives me a pang.

Animals shaped eraser, we too collected,
It was fun but soon, you were infected,
By the other; who you claimed a new friend,
In high school, that was when i lose my best friend.

We went our separate ways without any fight,
Just say 'hi' like we were never tight,
Everyday your new best friend took you away,
Willingly you followed while i still pray.

I remembered meeting up in the chapel,
And you offered me an apple,
You thought me how to really pray,
Losing you as my best friend was the hardest bill to pay.

Our friendship were left hanging on the line,
I counted the years and the number was nine,
If we meet, we meet and if we don't, we don't,
What role do i play, it is still unknown.

Nine years had passed and i still think,
Memories float while the boat sink,
I wished that things had been better,
I lose my best friend once, that really matter.

I still lay in bed and wonder,
My thoughts louder than the thunder,
What if we were still best friends?
My pain then, i don't have to pretend.

Questions about death

I've just been to a funeral this morning. Funerals are obviously sad and emotional. Thus, it is known as a dark parade. Such a young life was taken and most people would ask why? No one can answer that question but i guess that is our destiny. Life happens and ends. We have no say in it. "Wait. I don't want to be born now" or "Wait. I don't want to die now", these phrases can only be words. Birth and death wait for no one.

It made me think a lot about death. What does it feels like to die? Where will we go? Will we wonder around and for how long? What about our soul? Do we know that we are dead? What is next after death? Is there another life after that? Is it really goodbye? Different religion view death differently. Plus, the ritual are so different. But, all these questions can only be answered when it is our time to leave Earth.

Life is momentarily. Appreciate your family, your loved ones and your friends. Do not take them for granted because the time you spent with them will be your most precious memories when they are gone. With your memories you will never forget them. So, it will never be a goodbye for good. It will just be short time of separation.

Death

Life is a cycle on Earth,
It's been going on for thousands of years,
Just like the season,
Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter.

You are rich or you are poor,
You can be white, black or yellow,
Maybe you are the king, the president or a star,
In the eyes of Death we are just human.

Life on Earth is just temporary,
Birth and death are daily,
It is all a matter of Time,
Before your fate takes you.

Death knows no money,
It knows no colour,
It knows no age,
Or even who and how important you are.

We are mortal with one similar agenda,
A road that all human must travel,
Death has nothing but ONE,
We are helpless when it claims our life.

Mixed emotions

On Mother's Day this year, Dylan and I found a mother cat and three kittens. The first two kittens were fine but the third kitten was already dead for hours. The kittens were about 2 to 3 weeks old.The mother cat actually belonged to the neighbour but they denied it since it was pregnant. So, we took the mother cat and two kittens in. I did all the feeding, cleaning up and playing with these three strays.
I got a scare one day that the mother cat might be pregnant again. So, Evan offered to bring the mother cat and I to the vet and luckily, she was not pregnant. So, i told the vet the story about this cat and i would like to neuter her. Plus, her kittens were already eating solid food. I brought the mother cat back two days later to have her neutered. It all went well and got her home by that evening. She was a little aggressive and made life harder. Her kittens were kept in a huge cage at night while the mother cat was free to wander.

They stayed on our veranda which was not hot because there is shade. But, it made taking and keeping the laundry into a big chore. This is because the mother cat would run into the room and when i tried carrying her out, she will bite or scratched. I took the opportunity to take them to the SSPCA Adoption Day with mum but no one adopted them. When i came back, i just feel so down and disappointed. No doubt that they were the best looking feline there.So, i am best at crying so i cried.

I hated cleaning up someone's mess. Just because the previous owner didn't neuter the cat, it became pregnant and produced unwanted kittens. The line just go on and most human are heartless. The only solution that they have is throwing the mother cat away. I was so angry and sad but i know i have to hold on until someone adopt them. I wanted the mother cat and kittens adopted by the same family but learned that it is a rare case. I did what i have to and just yesterday, i got a call from a man who wanted the kittens. He saw my poster from the vet.

I explained to him that the mother cat is also available and he said he would love to adopt all of them. He didn't even ask about the price until the end of the conversation so he might be a good owner. I gave away the mother cat and two kittens just this morning. I was happy and sad at the same time. I was happy because they are wanted now and sad because i will never see them again. My only prayer is that Mimi, Jac Jac and Gus Gus are with a loving, caring and responsible family.